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[03 August 2005|7:54pm] |
stay out of my life.
thankyouverymuch.
you know who you are.
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[06 May 2005|2:07am] |
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i don't write in this anymore. and thank goodness xanga doesn't have this function. but people who post insults and profanity anonymously are shady. seriously, are we all still in high school? if you have the balls to go and post inane comments then you might as well put your name on the bottom. you know, just so that everyone else knows what kind of a pretentious loser you are. grow up.
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[15 February 2005|10:57am] |
LJ's being stupid. GOODBYE LJ forever!
fine me at xanga instead.
luv y'all.
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[13 February 2005|10:34pm] |
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valentine's day is tomorrow. um....yay??? =)
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[12 February 2005|7:03pm] |
I wonder...if you close your eyes and try REALLY hard....could you possibly get an inkling of an idea what someone else feels in their heart?
I believe that truth is expressed in actions and reactions....not words.
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[11 February 2005|3:42pm] |
[edited]
alright editing this. I had to take a nap cuz I was so tired. Lack of sleep this week. I watched autumn fairytale with trang yesterday and then came back and chatted it up with aaron. It feels like high school all over again, when we used to pick on each other endlessly. Well, he always picked on me...I would be the person going home picking cheeto bits out of my hair.
anyway...
i'm tired of seeing people hurting each other, of people playing games. I'm fairly sure that I've been a pretty straight up person. I talk to the people I care about, the people who I feel I can't live without in my life and I don't talk to others. Not to say be I won't be civil or open minded to meeting others. College has jaded so many people about relationships. A few weeks ago, I did something stupid. Not 100 percent stupid but pretty stupid. It made me realize why I have the morals that I have. I suppose I'm the sort of person who doesn't neccessarily learn from others. However, I do learn from my own mistakes. And after that I discovered that I don't need meaningless fixes to make me feel better. It really is funny how things happen when you're not searching for them. Maybe certain things only happen when you're truly content. Life is pretty mellow, very simple, full of laughter, full of friends and even a lil something else. I had a talk with my counselor a week ago and made the decision to change my major. Why pursue something you only loved once if you can't love it anymore? Life's about changes. It takes a few tries and failures before one can find their success. It's funny to see how much my walls have changed. At the beginning of this year there were pictures up of friends I used to hang out with...now they're pictures of my home girls, the sorority, and old 6N girls. They're pictures of the things that are stable in my life, they are the people I first cry to when I go through heartbreak or problems at home and the first people I tell my new epiphanies and adventures to. Things are going so much better at home, I've figured out my living situation for this summer and the following years at UCLA (trang....my nook...i can't wait!) and my parents are totally supportive of everything PLUS i'm most likely getting a car around summertime!!! School's going pretty well but I'm antsy for this quarter to end. Spring break I'm probably staying at the fox apartment to just sleep, hang out, craft, and relax. Hopefully plans follow through and I'll have some company that week. ;) I really miss my home girls though. Maybe they can come visit during spring break as well. We'll see....hmm why do i feel like napping...AGAIN???
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[12 January 2005|10:15pm] |
there are always those few people who never let you down, no matter how hard you try to push them away, or how difficult you make it for them to be your friend.
thanks guys.
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[09 January 2005|2:48am] |
hey lissa...this one's for you! =)
Stupid FUCkERS!
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[09 January 2005|2:31am] |
time does not equal appreciation.
i hate numbers.
u may look good on paper, but that will never define who you are as a person.
i give up.
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[30 December 2004|12:29am] |
so...flaming marshmallow at Fondue Fred's. Made for an interesting night.
hehe good memories!
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[27 December 2004|3:11pm] |
so i figured out what i wanted. a black jacket with Chi Alpha Delta letters in asian brocade.
someone take me to kada (sp?)!!
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[21 December 2004|5:41pm] |
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been home for about a day and a half now. just came back from work. which was nice...nothing much has changed except for the people who work there. everyone i used to love spending extra time out of work with are all gone, or promoted to another center. but the kids still remember me. it's a great feeling to go back after 2.5 months of not seeing a little girl, to hear her say that i'm still one of her favorite coaches. =) just walking and driving around alameda, i know i've definitely moved past the old comfort of home...LA's my home now. As I type this, i can't help but think about and miss my room back in Canyon Point. Yiwen and I strung christmas lights everywhere, my full goose down comfortor is on my bed, along with Boo and Nemo, pictures of my friends are up on my wall. My room here in Alameda has been turned into storage space, nothing familiar except for my duffel bag that's sitting on the floor with clothes all over it. It's funny how quickly life moves on, how time can just fly by with the blink of an eye. sister's kicking me off...more later.
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[15 December 2004|2:17am] |
Take a look at my body
Look at my hands
There's so much here that I don't understand
Your face-saving promises
Whispered like prayers
I don't need them
'Cause I've been treated so wrong,
I've been treated so long
As if I'm becoming untouchable
Well, contempt loves the silence, it thrives in the dark
With fine winding tendrils that strangle the heart
They say that promises sweeten the blow
But I don't need them, no I don't need them
I've been treated so wrong,
I've been treated so long
As if I'm becoming untouchable
I'm a slow-dying flower
In the frost-killing hour
Sweet turning sour and untouchable
I need the darkness, the sweetness, the sadness, the weakness
Oh I need this
I need a lullaby, a kiss goodnight, angel, sweet love of my life
Oh I need this
I'm a slow-dying flower
Frost-killing hour
The sweet turning sour and untouchable
Do you remember the way that you touched me before
All the trembling sweetness I loved and adored
Your face-saving promises
Whispered liked prayers
I don't need them
I need the darkness, the sweetness, the sadness, the weakness
Oh, I need this
I need a lullaby, a kiss goodnight, angel, sweet love of my life
Oh, I need this
Well is it dark enough
Can you see me
Do you want me
Can you reach me
Oh, I'm leaving
Better shut your mouth, and hold your breath
You kiss me now, you catch your death
Oh, I mean this
Oh, I mean this
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[15 December 2004|1:59am] |
another quarter has come to pass.
time for reflecting on the stupid things i've done, lessons i've learned, and memories stored away.
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[14 December 2004|3:35pm] |
i'm done. i'm done i'm done i'm done.
XMAS BREAK HAS OFFIALLY STARTED!!!!
i'm half done with cleaning the room, put up extra xmas lights (so pretty) and discovered that it's hard to make clothing for teddy bears.
next on my list...christmas cards and crafting to sex and the city. how awesome is this...*SIGH!
i can't wait till endless fun for three weeks. starting with ANDREA'S PLACE!
then xmas dance...it's been too long since i've seen my big and lil sis. and with the sorority all together in one place (well...a good number of them) just partying the night away.
not to mention, i miss home!
gotta take the little sister out to sushi house and catch up with alameda crew.
who wants to chill in berkeley with me???? i'm gonna be there quite often....=)
oh how i missed naan and curry!
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[12 December 2004|4:32am] |
bittersweetness.
it's all gone.
or is it?
maybe it just exists in shredded pieces...strewn somewhere between my dreams and my passions.
no more liquidated sorrow
to soak a cheap facade.
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[11 December 2004|3:42am] |
PEOPLE NEVER CEASE TO FUCKING DISAPPOINT ME
sorry only works so many times.
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[06 December 2004|11:54pm] |
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welcome to the family, new white gund bear whom i have not yet named.
i love you! hehe
THANKS LINDA! <3
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[04 December 2004|2:19am] |
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can't get over an ideal i created in my foolish mind
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[03 December 2004|2:28pm] |
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People are so damn selfish sometimes. GRRRRR.
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